i woke up last night in a panic my
chest was pounding so hard i
thought it would arrest and the
sweat poured down my face and
i couldn’t get any air and all i
could think about was what if i don’t get into med school
and then i remembered
i AM in med school and in only a few short months i’ll be a doctor
So then I got up and went in the shower and
let the warm water wash away the sweat and
then i calmed down enough to think about
the fourteen-year-old girl who was raped by
her stepfather and the sixteen-year girl whose
boyfriend beat her senseless and the
nine-year-old boy who’d been starved for five
nights and the twelve-year-old twins who’d
watched their parents die in front of them.
my patients for the day.
Maybe things were better when
the nightmares were all about me.